jeshi kawaii.. jeshi kowai

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i kinda missing my house. i mean my family's house..
i ran away last  2004 and i still haven't gone back since then. it was complicated. even the simple problems became complex.

we have house in marikina where me and my half sister shared the same room.. we also have another one in nueva ecija where i have my own room and everytime i wake up in the morning, i just need to take a bath and eat..

i am missing my grandma. i love her so much..
now that i am alone.. i am always looking for someone to be with coz i'm feeling lonely. i want someone to hug like a pillow at night, someone to understand me, someone to play with whenever things get fucked up and someone to share my life..
i've been imagining a lot of things.. things that will make me very happy.. things that can make me always feel comfortable.. things that somehow will be reality, and things that should've come true if only i didn't do some things in the past..

regrets..
contentment..
satisfaction..
happiness..
affection..
good life..